Adorable illusion and I cannot hide.
I’ve been researching all week on how hard it is to show up in the world today as an empath because we absorb all the energy around us...I feel everything and with everything going on in the world, it's overwhelming and I’m utterly zapped.
At first I thought it was because I wasn't feeling very social or getting over loss, but that isn’t why I’ve retreated.
I've suffered from anxiety my whole life, and according to studies, many empaths do because our intuition is turned up so high we sense subtle energies that most people miss... it also explains why I spent much of my childhood on edge, especially those teen years.
I always saw it as strength as I can read people, but these days having a high level of sensitivity is draining.
So I’m laying low.. and staying present for my family, my kids, my work, and mostly me.
Many empaths are drawn to healing and helping others... which definitely explains my career choice... I once had a CEO tell me in a coaching session, "You can't fix me" as I was welling up after he shared something very personal... He was right...his issues were not mine.
I’ve also discovered why empaths have a hard time buying anything pre-owned... I know this is going to sound bonkers, but even going into vintage clothing shops sends my system into high anxiety as I pick up on all the energies from people who have previously worn them.
It also explains why I can’t eat anything that remotely looks like a body part… why I always get a window on a plane so I can sleep and shut everyone out… and why I hate violent films... which sadly also includes the news.
Funnily enough zoom has helped as I pick up less virtually...which given the amount of people I talk to on a weekly basis has, in fact, been so much healthier for me.
So... I’m practicing being grounded, being more discerning about who I choose to spend time with, taking my own advice for some self-care... and in this crazy 'effed up world...trying to be positive and focused on being grateful… and blaming the Russians of course!